away

i cannot forget
i cannot remember

like parts of photographs cut out and pasted on a collage. (x age in years, days, or hours)
the glossy scraps are put together haphazardly, as if in a rage
or
the glossy scraps are put together with the seeming precision to solve a puzzle

regardless, they are not in order. chaos in two ways, an order of no order.

i am an artist trying to figure out whether or not my work is finished
but at this moment, i pour water over it.